Day 44

So this concludes the Lent and this journal. I have learned that being a prayer warrior and bible reader isn't about being spiritual, rather its just about making time. Setting aside time in the day. It's been hard refocusing my mind most of the time, but I find that when I do, I enjoy sitting down and being with God.

He reigns and IS ALIVE! He is living and active. He won't ever forsake, won't ever degrade, or ever reject anyone that truly calls on Him for help.

Thank you Father for being there for me these last 44 days. I've been around the world in that time and been through many different trials. Thank you for always being there.

Day 43

John 18:37-38 ESV

Then Pilate said to him, "So you are a king?" Jesus answered, "You say that I am a king. For this purpose I was born and for this purpose I have come into the world—to bear witness to the truth. Everyone who is of the truth listens to my voice."  Pilate said to him, "What is truth?"

It's funny how Man from the beginning is always looking for truth and yet from the beginning truth was there. We have the truth! We know the answers! Truth is a powerful thing. Just knowing the head knowledge in end of it self is a huge thing. BUT to believe it! that is another thing entirely. The world needs to know this truth. Everyone is searching for answers. They want to know. They are looking to know. They will do anything to know. How can we hid such a thing?

Father help us not to hid the Truth. Help us to be an open mind that people can come and see and learn about the truth! you came and gave your life for us... and for everyone just like us. God help us not to be selfish and satisfied with having received the truth. Help us to be free, help us to share this gift. Its the best thing that has ever happened to us! This should be the forefront of our minds and talk. help it be such.

Day 42

Okay so back home for Easter... I'm going to need a lot of grace to be in this place and not get irritated at people....

This the power of the cross, Son of man that came for us. ... We stand forgiven at the cross. He took the pain, meant for us.

Oh great God be glorified, our lives laid down yours magnified!

Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine, oh what  foretasted of Glory divine.

Christ is risen from the grave, trampling over death by death, come awake, come awake!

Thee grace alone oh Christ can bear this awful load.

Day 41

John 12:18-19 ESV

The reason why the crowd went to meet him was that they heard he had done this sign. So the Pharisees said to one another, "You see that you are gaining nothing. Look, the world has gone after him."

Father I pray that those words would once again be proclaimed! This world is such a sinful place, and yet words like these give me hope. I pray that you would once again send your spirit upon this broken world and work. Breathe new life into us. You can and are powerful enough. God I pray that you would start a work in our church. I pray that if it would please you, that Megan and I would be at the forefront of that movement. I pray that a great fire would just fall upon the church. That people would not only be excited about coming to church, but that they would also be just as excited to reach out to the people are outside of the church. God help Megan and I not to be self-centered. Help us be a blessing to others. God help us to see and the strength to want to love people. Help us love the unloveable, the people that no one wants to love.

Day 40

I thought there were only 40 days in Lent... weird..

Philippians 4:6-7 ESV

do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

So I've realized lately that I've really been anxious about a lot of things lately. I just thought of this verse and I'm going to take it literally and go on faith and list out the things I'm anxious and ask for peace as well as request them. This is not as a test of God, but rather just an obedience thing.

I'm anxious about

- marriage -- I want to get married, I know what I want, but there seem to be so many little bumps and things that have to be worked through..
- money--- this is also something that I think about a lot.. and inregards to the things listed below
- -job -- I need a job for this summer/the next 2 years, one that pays well, and will provide me with medical experience
- -apartment/house -- I need to find a house or apartment where I can live. I want a place that is peaceful, cheap, safe, and new/clean
- -car -- my car is going to die in the next few months to a year, I just know it. I don't really want to drive around a clunker, but would like a car that is less than 5 years old, looks nice, and gets good gas mileage.
- -clothes -- I really need to buy more clothes. My jeans are shot, I need dress shoes and a new suit
- -computer -- I really would like a Mac air (and a Mac mini with a large LCD screen) and feel like I need a new computer as I finish up school here. I am thankful for the tablet I do have, but it kept turning off today and restarting and I was getting pretty frustrated at it.
- -furniture -- I need/want furniture for this new place. I want nice furniture that people of all types feel comfortable in. Something that isn't all floral and tacky like, but rather comfortable and elegant.
- PA school -- I want to go to PA school, I want to get in. I have no idea if I can be accepted... I'm scared about this one, but I do want to go.

Lord these are all things that I've been anxious about in the past 12 hours.. they have occupied my mind. Please give me your peace. Father I do thank you for all your wonderful gifts. I can't even began to count and list off what they are. I will never know how much you love me, but what i do see, I am speechless. father I pray that you would change my heart. That you would make it line up with yours. Father I know that this can't all be pure, but I do ask that you would grant me the things that I am anxious about. I'm not going to be upset at you for not answering, but rather I am listing them because that's what you have told me to do. Father, it doesn't say you will grant me my requests, but rather it says you would give me peace. I ask for that tonight Lord. :)

Day 39

I listen to a talk from a XA MNL a week ago. It really helped me have a fresh perspective on my life and the way that I live.... Jesus plus nothing was a topic. The analogy of coke and water and how water is a cleaning agent, found in practically everything, simple, and good for you. On the other hand, coke is bad for you in large amounts and is very complex. Jesus is the same was as water; simple but neccisary  for life.

Another interesting point he brought up was the idea that bringing Jesus up in a conversation doesn't make the rest of the conversation awkward. Trust God... e bold, not rash, but not in a spirit of fear! Most people are willing to talk, curious if you will.

Father, help me to be bold! Help me to want to spread your kingdom.

Day 38

2 Corinthians 8:1-5 ESV

We want you to know, brothers, about the grace of God that has been given among the churches of Macedonia, for in a severe test of affliction, their abundance of joy and their extreme poverty have overflowed in a wealth of generosity on their part. For they gave according to their means, as I can testify, and beyond their means, of their own accord, begging us earnestly for the favor of taking part in the relief of the saints— and this, not as we expected, but they gave themselves first to the Lord and then by the will of God to us.

This was tonight's talk. I realized how stingy I really am. Two quotes from tonight's talk stuck out to me.

"Giving is not the duty of the rich, but rather the privilege of the poor."

"Will you be bound by your blessing?"

Only 37% of Christian's tithe, and that only on 2% of their income.

I don't really tithe, I forget to bring my checks and I make excuses that I don't really have any income anyhow... but giving is a thing of the heart, not of circumstances.

Giving is such a blessing... to give means showing God's grace, trusting in God's power, and relying on God's promises.

God help me to not cling to tightly to money. Father I so often am more concerned about my bank account, than about the opportunities that you have placed in my path to give. Please help me. I do not want to be a hindrance to your kingdom, I want to move it forward. I want to be at the front lines, proclaiming your truth and your might saving powers. Give me faith, teach me love.

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Day 34

John 17:20-26 ESV

"I do not ask for these only, but also for those who will believe in me through their word, that they may all be one, just as you, Father, are in me, and I in you, that they also may be in us, so that the world may believe that you have sent me. The glory that you have given me I have given to them, that they may be one even as we are one, I in them and you in me, that they may become perfectly one, so that the world may know that you sent me and loved them even as you loved me. Father, I desire that they also, whom you have given me, may be with me where I am, to see my glory that you have given me because you loved me before the foundation of the world. O righteous Father, even though the world does not know you, I know you, and these know that you have sent me. I made known to them your name, and I will continue to make it known, that the love with which you have loved me may be in them, and I in them."

WOAH! that is talking about us. "but also for those who will believe in me through their word..." That is ME! God I thank you for your love and your grace that you give me.

"I come by the blood, I come by the cross" I come by you Lord. "I am the way the truth and the life"  I thank you for showing me the way.

I'm finding it hard to set aside time for you. I get distracted and side tracked with useless things. I find myself wondering, "what is on facebook, who is that that Tom is talking to, Why is Matt so weird, Man I'm tired and my allergies are acting up again... maybe I should have gotten the name brand medication. ..

Create in my a pure heart oh God. Make me whiter than snow.... guide my thoughts make them pleasing in your sight.

Day 33

John 14:18-21 ESV

"I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. Yet a little while and the world will see me no more, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live. In that day you will know that I am in my Father, and you in me, and I in you. Whoever has my commandments and keeps them, he it is who loves me. And he who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I will love him and manifest myself to him."

I will not leave you as orphans.... God thank you for that promise! Thank you for telling us what is going to happen. Thank you for creating us one within you.

God I thank you for those people that in that video, the tribe from Papua New Guinea. I thank you for loving even those people. God you are God! You are sovereign over all. Thank you for loving all mankind. Thank you for giving us and others a change to see your love. Work in those hearts, show yourself to them. Work in our hearts, that we might serve you where we are at and effect the people around us for your glory. Place a burden on our hearts for the lost people of this world. God I plead with you, that you would give a people group to me... that I can pray for, support, and share your love with.

God I thank you for the martyrs who have gone before....who are a testimony of your love. "To live is Christ, and to die is Gain" Help us to take this to heart!

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Day 32

Wow God. Thank you for sustaining me today. Thank you for leading me to give you time today, I was really blessed by getting to spend time with you. God be with Megan tonight, help her to rest in you. God I thank you for giving me the opportunity to pray for her tonight! That is just so cool to be able to spend time appealing to you to help my friend. Thank you for hearing my prayers. I know you answered them. Thank you for the assurance that you gave me tonight.

God answers prayers from his people. He even uses prayers from one person to another! How cool is that?

We serve an awesome God! I read about Him washing people's feet this morning. What does it  really mean to stoop that low in today's world? How do we serve people like that?

Day 31

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Well it is getting increasingly harder to spend time with God. Temptations and physical things push themselves a upon me. Everything is calling out for my time, my money, and my life. BUT You are the only one worth living for! You are the only one that can give me life. God I pray that you would open my eyes to this fact. That you would control my every action and would be the focus of every thought of mine.

"Live for Christ and the rest will follow"

Help me to really take this to heart! I need only to follow you.

"Breathe new life into these bones..."

God I need you spirit. "Spirit of the living God, fall a fresh on me!"

Fall fresh Father... When I think of this, I see a plant that is being lightly rained on with the whole air full of mist. The rain is gentle but constant. The plant is also near a stream and there is a fresh smell of mint along with the clean ozone smell of the rain.

God help me be this plant. Mist down upon me and saturate me with your love.

Day 28

"The Lord reigns, let the earth be glad; let the distant shores rejoice. Clouds and thick darkness surround him; righteousness, and justice are the foundation of his throne. Fire goes before him and consumes his foes on every side. His lightning lights up the world; the earth sees and trembles. The mountains melt like wax before the Lord, before the Lord of all the earth. The heavens proclaim his righteousness, and all the peoples' see his glory." - Psalm 97

God you reign. Your lightning was seen today. I'm so glad you show your power to us here on earth. The heavens do proclaim your righteousness! thank you for making it so that when people look up at the sky they can't put into words what they see. They are seeing you in your creation. You are all around. Your intelligence, your power, your beauty.... Thank you for loving beauty and showing us beauty.

Thank you Father for your grace to get through the day... everyday.

Day 27

"Dear friends, if our hearts do not condemn us, we have confidence before God and receive from him anything we ask, because we obey his commands and do what pleases him...those who obey his commands live in him, an he in them. And this is how we know that he lives in us: We know it by the Spirit he gave us."
- 1 John 3:21-24

God you say if our hearts don't condemn us... well Father my heart condemns me a lot. Please be with my heart. shape it into what you want. God I thank you for never condemning us. I thank you for sending your precious son to die and be condemned instead of us. Jesus, I thank you for taking my condemnation upon yourself. My heart is evil God, please change it to be like yours.

I keep finding it hard to make time.. more like give time, for God. I actually have a lighter schedule than normal this week, but yet I find it hard to sit down and just be with God. I'm a Martha, I often times feel like I can sit down and talk to Jesus later.. right now I would rather ____ you can fill in the blank.

Day 25

Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil, cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves. - Romans 12:9-10

Honor one another above yourselves... hm.. yeah failed at that one a lot today.
- I didn't want to take out the trash because someone ELSE had filled it to over flowing and they should have been the ones to take it out.
- I didn't help make dinner because I didn't feel like it.
- I got upset that I couldn't talk tonight with Megan.
- I got upset at Matt for being lazy an always bossing others around

It's just a bunch of selfishness... ME ME ME! That's all I'm looking out for.

- My stomach hurts
- My back has issues
- My finger is being dumb
- I have homework to do..

Honoring and loving someones is not always easy, but it is always the best. God is honored and HIS love is shown to the other person. The aroma of Christ.

God please help me. I am such a selfish person. Please help me to be a servant. One that is willing to take out the trash, to clean up the dishes, to serve my girlfriend. God I need your help. I can't do it on my own. I want to be your hands and feet, even if that means less of me.... less of my life, or my plans. God give me a desire to serve you by serving others.

You are good
You are good
When there's nothing good in me!

Thanks you for being good. For loving me despite me lack of love towards you or others

Day 24

"Streams of tears flow from my eyes, for your law is not obeyed."

Do I really share that anguish? Is his law that important to me? Am I saddened that people on earth are not following and honoring God?

I think that I am more saddened by the people not obeying and sharing in the joy that I have, for their sakes, not for God's. It's all about the Glory and OF GOD! God is worth serving and his glory is worth proclaiming, even if he hadn't promised us eternal life with him. He is still worth it all! Its not about man kind, or the feeling sorry for our fellow man, but it's for God's glory that we proclaim his Gospel!

God help me to remember this. Help me to be more intentional for you with people! God, it is for you and your Glory that everything should be said, done, thought about. Help me to remember this. God I thank you for the blessings that you have showered upon me. Thank you for bringing me into your family. Thank you for calling me SON.

Day 23

Saturday was very restful, I slept for 13 hours, but I felt very unmotivated to read my bible or even to pray. I was very distracted.. not by anything in particular, just by my lazy self.

Still reading through Psalm 119, I'm struck at how the author is always saying "I follow all your law" or "I love your law" or "I have sought your face with all my heart."

I don't think I can say that yet. I don't think that I can confidently say that I follow all your laws or that I seek him without fail. Is that wrong? I thought we were all sinners and that we aren't perfect. How can the psalm writer make such bold statements?

Here again the psalmist says "in the night I remember your name, O Lord. and I will keep your law. This has been my practice. I obey your law."
Really dude? Do you really lay on your bed at night and just sing praises and think about how you can obey the law? Am I just so immature that I often lay on my bed and think about how my day has been, or how I so often lay there fighting temptations? Am I just so stupid and not close to God?

God please help me to understand your ways. I am weak. Help me Father

Day 22

I found that in the busyness, it was easy to cut my time with God short. I never fully cut him out of my day, but he wasn't the focus of my day.

I've been reading through Pslam 119. I love how beautiful this psalm is.

"How can a young man keep his way pure? By living according to your word." - Pslam 119:9

I found this verse so helpful. Spring has come and with it warmth... and with that the clothes come off. It took me by surprise this year, and I felt very vulnerable and tempted often. The Lord is good, blessed be the name of the Lord!!!

Day 20

"I pray that all may go well with you and that you may be in good health, as it goes well with your soul." - 3 John 1:2

As it goes well with your soul...

How often I am more worried about my physical body and it's needs and place that ahead of my spiritual body. Even now I'm thinking about how late it is and how much sleep I'm missing out on by giving my hour to God.

"But I discipline my body and keep it under control, lest after preaching to others I myself should be disqualified." - 1 Corinthians 9:27

Running in such a way to win the prize.... God help me run. I've always sucked at running. Give me the stamina and the sheer joy of just running for you.

Day 19

And when I think, that God, His Son not sparing;
Sent Him to die, I scarce can take it in;
That on the Cross, my burden gladly bearing,
He bled and died to take away my sin.

This is the song we sang tonight. It blessed me so much to sing, and with all my heart and voice. I'm so bless to not have to fear that someone might hear me sing and persecute me for it. So so blessed.

"And this is love,that we walk according to his commandments..." - 2 John 1:6

Love is obeying a set of rules? Or is is walking with You? God sometime the temptations of my heart are so heavy and trying that it seems like I don't love you. What then? Do I not love you? I believe in the scriptures... I believe you when you say "that everyone who has bee born of God does not keep sinning, but he who was born of God protects him, and the evil one does not touch him" - 1 John 5:18

God I thank you for not allowing me to be harmed...tempted and tried, I'm oft' made to wander.. but surely I stand... if God is for us, who can be against us?

God you are all powerful! I thank you that there is no one greater than you.

I thank you for conviction. God convicted me on my pass trip that I need to smile more, and be more intentional about my relationships and interactions that involve people. I found out just how easy it was to forget about these things as I went through my day. I went to the store and totally forgot that about smiling or asking the lady about her day... I was much more focused on me and about my wants and needs.
God help me.... help me smile. I have the greatest joy and more blessings than I can even count, I should be just overflowing with your joy!  I want people to see the light of Christ in me.

Day 8

About 4 years ago I made a memo in my cell phone with the kinda of girl I would want to date....

A girl that…

Puts other before herself and God before that

Who takes things in strides knowing God is in control

I need a girl that is willing to do hard things and doesn’t needlessly complain

A girl that listens to the holy-spirit and follows

A girl that will point me to Christ when I lose my perspective

One that isn’t oblivious and who sees needs

A girl that will support me by encouragement, prayer, and just being there to listen to my problems

A girl that allows me to look out for her, one that wants me to be there for her, allows me to protect

her.

A girl that doesn’t need physical things to be happy

A girl who is gentle toward people and not just me

A girl who takes care of herself, and likes looking nice, but does not let that care get in the way of her

blessing of others.

A girl that doesn’t have to be the center of everything/conversation

One that can be friends with anyone, but not best friends with all

One that will make me STOP and just relax.

God has placed that girl in my life. In Proverbs 31, the second to last verse ends with, "Charm is deceitful and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised."

Father teach me to love my girl the way that you loved the Church, giving up myself for her. Teach me to show her honor. Help me to fight for her. Help me fight my own self and all of its fleshly desires, selfishness, and pride so that I might better lift her up. God I can't do this. I don't know how to love like this.

Teach me gentleness and kindness. Show me how to bridle my tongue and speak words that point her to you.

Day 7

"Three things are too wonderful for me, four I do not understand: the way of an eagle in the sky, the way of a serpent on a rock, the way of a ship on the high seas, and the way of a man with a virgin" - Proverbs 30:18-19

"Under three things the earth trembles; under four it cannot bear up: a slave when he becomes king and a fool when he is filled with food; an unloved womn when she gets a husband, and a maidservant when she displaces her mistress" - Proverbs 30:21-23

I love these verses, they make my heart stop and make me almost cry. So so beautiful

God has been very good to me today. Not only was I able to make it through all my classes, I was also able to get fitted for Chris and Megan's wedding and do some shopping. I found out that my phone is still under warranty.... something that I learned today though is how easy it is for me to slip into complaining. I came back to the house and found myself complaining at how inconvienent and complicated it was to get my phone replaced, where as moments before I didn't even think I was able to get it replaced. God teach me to think before I start complaining. Help me to count my blessings throughout my day.

Day 6

Well I put off my time with God today.... I was just too busy. Though tonight, an hour ago, I found that I was excited to get to spend time with God. I did however find that throughout my time with him I had trouble staying focused... I wanted to check my medicine, phone, facebook, nose strips, app updates... I find when I do this, the best way for me to get back to God is by listening to music. I was trying to find the song "You are good, you are good. when there's nothing good in me. You are love, you are love..." but instead I found this wonderful song called "You are good" - by Point of Grace. God then used In Christ Alone to pump me up for him. To remind me that I am secure in him.

I read 1 Peter 3 and 4 tonight. I really liked a few of the passages.

1 Peter 3:13-17 ESV

Now who is there to harm you if you are zealous for what is good? But even if you should suffer for righteousness' sake, you will be blessed. Have no fear of them, nor be troubled, but in your hearts honor Christ the Lord as holy, always being prepared to make a defense to anyone who asks you for a reason for the hope that is in you; yet do it with gentleness and respect, having a good conscience, so that, when you are slandered, those who revile your good behavior in Christ may be put to shame. For it is better to suffer for doing good, if that should be God's will, than for doing evil.

1 Peter 4:7-11 ESV

The end of all things is at hand; therefore be self-controlled and sober-minded for the sake of your prayers. Above all, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins. Show hospitality to one another without grumbling. As each has received a gift, use it to serve one another, as good stewards of God's varied grace: whoever speaks, as one who speaks oracles of God; whoever serves, as one who serves by the strength that God supplies—in order that in everything God may be glorified through Jesus Christ. To him belong glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen.

I have nothing to fear. Segni asked me a lot today if I was afraid of going to Tunisia. Even though I'm not afraid of going, I realized that I'm afraid of a lot of other things in my life. What job will I be able to find? How will I be able to support my family? How will I be able to fit in back home again?

But I have Christ, everything is from Him and I must direct all my efforts, time, and thoughts toward glorifying him. I must do this! It is of the utmost importance. I pray that God would bless this time that I have... the efforts and the time that I have given to him. I trust in you Father.

Day 5

Spirit of the living God, fall afresh on me! Spirit of the living God, fall afresh on me...

Today I felt very distant from God. It's not like it's your fault God, I just had trouble focusing. I do want you to be in my life, and I do want to be able to hear you when you talk to me. I feel like I was to busy with my own agenda to listen to what you had to say. Please fall afresh on me! I really can't make it on my own without you. Please give me back the heart that you gave me for people. I feel like I had pretty apathetic about people today. I just didn't really care about them like I should have. I think that is partly why I feel so empty tonight and why I feel like I wasn't very productive today even though I finished everything on my to do list. God help me get my priorities straight, Help me have a spirit that wants to be taught by you. 

I read Proverbs 26 today... a lot of talk about fools. Boy, I hope that I learn not to be a fool!
"Do you see a man who is wise in his own eyes? There is more hope for a fool than for him!"
Yeah... I'm that man so often. Lord I pray again that you would help me have an open mind toward people. To listen to what people say and not to close off my mind for any reason.

Day 3

"Here to adore you for all of my days. I come before you with honor and praise."

God of the Heavens. You shine down. You reign. Let God be true and every man a liar! God you are true, you are Holy just .. and yet you are a God of mercy. I thank you for the free gift of salvation that you have offered me. Jesus, I thank you for taking my place and suffering, for being cut off from your Father so that I wouldn't have to ever experience that. Lord, I was struck by this today... you say this when you see me - "This is my beloved Son with whom I am well pleased."

WHAT!??? Beloved Son? Well pleased? ME???? How can this be?

Another thing that you showed me.
"Live as people who are free not using your freedom as a cover-up for evil, but living as servants of God"
You gave me freedom so that I could be a servant? You gave me the gift of freedom in you so that I could serve you? God I hadn't really thought about it like that. I am completely free, and yet... I am your servant. Create in me a servants heart! That I would use the gift that you gave me to bring you more honor and praise. For freedom you have set me free! So I could give you glory, that's why I am free! I AM FREE!

Today I read 1 Peter 2, and Proverbs 24. I went on a prayer walk with one of the team members for Tunisia. I really need to do that more often. I found that even after we were done and I was riding my bike to class, I was noticing the people around me and was praying for them out loud in my head. It was such a great thing. I'm really looking forward to praying for people I see everyday and yet do not know.

Day 2

Today I split my hour up into many little segments. I started the morning out worshiping and praying with Clay and Christian, read my bible on a hill over looking 29 in the afternoon sun, and the finally ended the day with praying and writing this blog.

"Incline your ear, and hear the words of the wise.... I have made them known to you today, even to you."  God you show me daily your direction and your wisdom. Father forgive me for forgetting you so often throughout my day. Forgive me for complaining and for being unhappy with the lack of direction that you have given me. This is so not true, this is such a lie. I thank you for giving me the eyes to see that today.

God why do you care about me? I don't have anything to offer. I am so weak. So so weak.. weak in self control, in love, and in my own physical strenght. Weak to the point of falling to sexual temptation just 30 minutes after telling the girl in my life that I love her. God I am so weak. Why Father? Why???

Oh Jesus you are the one that your Father, that our Father sees! I thank you Lord for the forgiving my sins. For taking my failings, weakness, and utterly dirty rags and making something so wonderful. For taking my life and molding me into someone that God loves. Jesus, My Savior! To you I owe my all. To you alone should my focus be on, to give you glory. Oh Savior.. I fail you so often. I'm sorry for the way that I spit in your face. Lamb of God, You gave your all for me, help me to give my all to you.

God be with me in teaching me how to listen to others and to hear the words of the wisdom that you have given them. God I need to work on listening to people... Father I so often close up my heart from people and ultimately from you. God I want an open heart, one that is easily molded into the way you want me to be. God please create in me a clean new fresh heart. One that is tender of soft. God please work. Do what you must to make me into the man that you want me to be.

Day 1

I really was struggling with wanting to do this. I was really tired, and kept falling asleep for the first 15 minutes, but by the end I was so energized and full of joy. I kept getting goose bumps :) I read, listen to songs, prayed through a psalm, and even danced a little. I wrote on my mirror too :) He is so faithful and so strong!