Day 7

"Three things are too wonderful for me, four I do not understand: the way of an eagle in the sky, the way of a serpent on a rock, the way of a ship on the high seas, and the way of a man with a virgin" - Proverbs 30:18-19

"Under three things the earth trembles; under four it cannot bear up: a slave when he becomes king and a fool when he is filled with food; an unloved womn when she gets a husband, and a maidservant when she displaces her mistress" - Proverbs 30:21-23

I love these verses, they make my heart stop and make me almost cry. So so beautiful

God has been very good to me today. Not only was I able to make it through all my classes, I was also able to get fitted for Chris and Megan's wedding and do some shopping. I found out that my phone is still under warranty.... something that I learned today though is how easy it is for me to slip into complaining. I came back to the house and found myself complaining at how inconvienent and complicated it was to get my phone replaced, where as moments before I didn't even think I was able to get it replaced. God teach me to think before I start complaining. Help me to count my blessings throughout my day.

Day 6

Well I put off my time with God today.... I was just too busy. Though tonight, an hour ago, I found that I was excited to get to spend time with God. I did however find that throughout my time with him I had trouble staying focused... I wanted to check my medicine, phone, facebook, nose strips, app updates... I find when I do this, the best way for me to get back to God is by listening to music. I was trying to find the song "You are good, you are good. when there's nothing good in me. You are love, you are love..." but instead I found this wonderful song called "You are good" - by Point of Grace. God then used In Christ Alone to pump me up for him. To remind me that I am secure in him.

I read 1 Peter 3 and 4 tonight. I really liked a few of the passages.

1 Peter 3:13-17 ESV

Now who is there to harm you if you are zealous for what is good? But even if you should suffer for righteousness' sake, you will be blessed. Have no fear of them, nor be troubled, but in your hearts honor Christ the Lord as holy, always being prepared to make a defense to anyone who asks you for a reason for the hope that is in you; yet do it with gentleness and respect, having a good conscience, so that, when you are slandered, those who revile your good behavior in Christ may be put to shame. For it is better to suffer for doing good, if that should be God's will, than for doing evil.

1 Peter 4:7-11 ESV

The end of all things is at hand; therefore be self-controlled and sober-minded for the sake of your prayers. Above all, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins. Show hospitality to one another without grumbling. As each has received a gift, use it to serve one another, as good stewards of God's varied grace: whoever speaks, as one who speaks oracles of God; whoever serves, as one who serves by the strength that God supplies—in order that in everything God may be glorified through Jesus Christ. To him belong glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen.

I have nothing to fear. Segni asked me a lot today if I was afraid of going to Tunisia. Even though I'm not afraid of going, I realized that I'm afraid of a lot of other things in my life. What job will I be able to find? How will I be able to support my family? How will I be able to fit in back home again?

But I have Christ, everything is from Him and I must direct all my efforts, time, and thoughts toward glorifying him. I must do this! It is of the utmost importance. I pray that God would bless this time that I have... the efforts and the time that I have given to him. I trust in you Father.

Day 5

Spirit of the living God, fall afresh on me! Spirit of the living God, fall afresh on me...

Today I felt very distant from God. It's not like it's your fault God, I just had trouble focusing. I do want you to be in my life, and I do want to be able to hear you when you talk to me. I feel like I was to busy with my own agenda to listen to what you had to say. Please fall afresh on me! I really can't make it on my own without you. Please give me back the heart that you gave me for people. I feel like I had pretty apathetic about people today. I just didn't really care about them like I should have. I think that is partly why I feel so empty tonight and why I feel like I wasn't very productive today even though I finished everything on my to do list. God help me get my priorities straight, Help me have a spirit that wants to be taught by you. 

I read Proverbs 26 today... a lot of talk about fools. Boy, I hope that I learn not to be a fool!
"Do you see a man who is wise in his own eyes? There is more hope for a fool than for him!"
Yeah... I'm that man so often. Lord I pray again that you would help me have an open mind toward people. To listen to what people say and not to close off my mind for any reason.

Day 3

"Here to adore you for all of my days. I come before you with honor and praise."

God of the Heavens. You shine down. You reign. Let God be true and every man a liar! God you are true, you are Holy just .. and yet you are a God of mercy. I thank you for the free gift of salvation that you have offered me. Jesus, I thank you for taking my place and suffering, for being cut off from your Father so that I wouldn't have to ever experience that. Lord, I was struck by this today... you say this when you see me - "This is my beloved Son with whom I am well pleased."

WHAT!??? Beloved Son? Well pleased? ME???? How can this be?

Another thing that you showed me.
"Live as people who are free not using your freedom as a cover-up for evil, but living as servants of God"
You gave me freedom so that I could be a servant? You gave me the gift of freedom in you so that I could serve you? God I hadn't really thought about it like that. I am completely free, and yet... I am your servant. Create in me a servants heart! That I would use the gift that you gave me to bring you more honor and praise. For freedom you have set me free! So I could give you glory, that's why I am free! I AM FREE!

Today I read 1 Peter 2, and Proverbs 24. I went on a prayer walk with one of the team members for Tunisia. I really need to do that more often. I found that even after we were done and I was riding my bike to class, I was noticing the people around me and was praying for them out loud in my head. It was such a great thing. I'm really looking forward to praying for people I see everyday and yet do not know.

Day 2

Today I split my hour up into many little segments. I started the morning out worshiping and praying with Clay and Christian, read my bible on a hill over looking 29 in the afternoon sun, and the finally ended the day with praying and writing this blog.

"Incline your ear, and hear the words of the wise.... I have made them known to you today, even to you."  God you show me daily your direction and your wisdom. Father forgive me for forgetting you so often throughout my day. Forgive me for complaining and for being unhappy with the lack of direction that you have given me. This is so not true, this is such a lie. I thank you for giving me the eyes to see that today.

God why do you care about me? I don't have anything to offer. I am so weak. So so weak.. weak in self control, in love, and in my own physical strenght. Weak to the point of falling to sexual temptation just 30 minutes after telling the girl in my life that I love her. God I am so weak. Why Father? Why???

Oh Jesus you are the one that your Father, that our Father sees! I thank you Lord for the forgiving my sins. For taking my failings, weakness, and utterly dirty rags and making something so wonderful. For taking my life and molding me into someone that God loves. Jesus, My Savior! To you I owe my all. To you alone should my focus be on, to give you glory. Oh Savior.. I fail you so often. I'm sorry for the way that I spit in your face. Lamb of God, You gave your all for me, help me to give my all to you.

God be with me in teaching me how to listen to others and to hear the words of the wisdom that you have given them. God I need to work on listening to people... Father I so often close up my heart from people and ultimately from you. God I want an open heart, one that is easily molded into the way you want me to be. God please create in me a clean new fresh heart. One that is tender of soft. God please work. Do what you must to make me into the man that you want me to be.

Day 1

I really was struggling with wanting to do this. I was really tired, and kept falling asleep for the first 15 minutes, but by the end I was so energized and full of joy. I kept getting goose bumps :) I read, listen to songs, prayed through a psalm, and even danced a little. I wrote on my mirror too :) He is so faithful and so strong!